Before, and possibly above, everything else I loved to draw.
One reason that made me feel unsure and uneasy, in the earlier days, about committing to “being a writer” was the awareness that the act of writing itself didn’t give me as much pleasure and satisfaction as drawing or making other kinds of visual arts. Over time, however, I came to appreciate that to undergo profound distress—for that’s what writing feels like to me—and survived offered a different kind of satisfaction, and a pretty rewarding one too.
I am certainly more comfortable with the title “writer” now, but whenever I have the opportunity to draw I am reminded with great force how much I enjoy it and wish I could be doing it more often.
Drawing puts me in an unusual state of mind. It feels almost like meditation, but with the brain on hyperactive mode. There’s so much learning going on in drawing. The passing of time is rarely noticed, until various body parts start to hurt or go numb.
Recently, I made drawings for book covers and felt really good doing them. I asked myself, why not draw more often? I couldn’t come up with a good answer, accept that my other activities were supposedly “work” while to draw would feel closer to “play,” with no obvious professional or financial advantages.
But the urge to draw persisted, and the Pikku and Mikku project is the result of it. I hope to be consistent with this project (I’ve been making a new drawing everyday so far), and to eventually connect the dots and have it be a part of my “work world” somehow. I don’t know. I’ve always wanted to write (and draw) a graphic novel. I am also thinking of learning to animate, so maybe this can progress into a series of short animations…etc. For now, I’m just having a lot of fun with it.
If you’re interested, please follow the Pikku and Mikku project on Instagram. It may seem rather different from my other works, but I think some subtle similarities can be found, especially in the lines. I am also open to commissions. Drop me a line if you’d like me to draw in this style for you.
P.S. Pikku (usually spelled Pukku) and Mikku are names of mysterious objects that appear in the Epic of Gilgamesh. Some experts have suggested that they’re names of musical instruments, while some think they’re devices used in some kind of game or sport. I prefer knowing that no one knows for sure.